When You Fail...

The definition of grace has never been more profound to my soul then in this current season.
GRACE--unmerited divine assistance given humans for their regeneration or sanctification.

There is the excitement of God speaking so profoundly into your life, the knowledge and understanding that God is whispering into your ear "this is the way you should go."  God in all His foreknowledge prepares our hearts and our minds for the coming season.  But Then..... the season comes, fear overwhelms, and our human hearts get the best of us and we begin to work in our own power and we put our trust in our own hands. 

It does not take long to realize that the only power our hands hold is that of destruction, weariness, discouragement, and chaos.  Our hearts become discouraged and we further our destruction by trying to find our identity, our security, and our purpose in the hearts of others.

It seems that at this point the only way that God can get us on our knees to be in communion with Him is to allow our own bodies to give out.  Our own senses fail us, our own power is not strong enough, and our inner soul collapses and cries out--Oh God, save me from this.  

Where strength fails, grace prevails.

We become empty, 
but as soon as our cry hits heaven's ears,
divine Grace comes and fills us with hope.

How undeserving we are...to know that we hurt the heart of our God and yet with unmerited divine assistance, He reaches from His throne and speaks into our hearts----You are mine and I am Yours. I cry out to Him oh Abba Father--and He calls me His child of purpose.

You whisper over me and my heart screams for You God,

you take my hand and we begin again...

I am Faithful Like The Morning

Not by your power but by mine

will you shine vibrant like the sky.

I am opening the Heavens

that My glory may pour out.

O lift your eyes to the sky

Fill Yourself with Me.

Turn Your weariness to wonder

that you may reflect Heaven's mystery.

I am faithful just like the morning,

though the darkness may rise.

In my light you will find rest.

Be still and see that the Heavens open for you.

I show you my glory that you may

awaken the earth to my wonder

--Shine in My brilliance--

Like a star in the sky

Like mornings first light

Step By Step

A Total Dependence on God

I woke up this morning and this song was playing in my head..."Oh God, You are My God, and I will Ever Praise You...I will seek you in the morning, and I will learn to walk in your ways, and step by step you'll lead me, and I will follow you all of my days."

I like to have a plan.  I'm the type of girl that wants the 3-5 year plan; I want the planner that has everything organized and tells me exactly what I need to do, where I need to be, and what the expectations are.  Lately though, I feel that I need to invest in the world's largest eraser!  It seems that everything I plan ends up getting erased, changed, or moved. 

Giving up control is something that is really hard for me.  To say, "I don't know" is even harder.  In this season of life though it seems that God is asking for me to completely let go, to surrender,  and to trust Him with the plan.  Why is it so hard to trust the God of the universe, the God that created our days and our existence with "the plan"?  

And Step by Step You'll Lead Me, And I will l Follow You All Of My Days.

Faith is the moment before every step-- It is not having the plan, not seeing the vision, and yet trusting that God knows each and every step before we do.  

In previous blogs the theme that God had been placing on my heart was peace, separation, retreating. I wasn't quite sure what these all meant but now that I am in that season of total dependence on God, I understand.  We can not listen for the voice of God with each and every step of our lives if we are constantly distracted, continually busy, and overwhelmed with the voices of others.

When God asks us to retreat, it is with great purpose.  He is preparing your mind, body, and spirit for total dependence on Him.  

So the question today is...Who or What is leading our lives? 

I know that personally, I need to retreat, I need to consume my life with peace, and its time to make some very hard choices in order to be lead completely by God.

I know that I have to give up my plan for His.  Its time to take out that planner and that eraser and create a blank slate for God to work.  My plan is not working, it hasn't been working for a very long time.  I don't want to live a life of pencil and eraser anymore.  I want a life where God uses permanent ink and inscribes on my heart, His will and His plan.  

Is our plan keeping God from revealing His plan?

The heart of a man plans his way, 

but the LORD directs his steps. 

Proverbs 16:9

He Calls Me His Redeemed

Seek HIS Peace

I just have something simple to say tonight, something that I think God wants to inscribe on the hearts of His people.  "You Have Great Worth--Seek Beyond What You Can See."

Seek His Peace

In His Presence You Will Find Rest

In His Rest You Will Find Hope

And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. (Romans 5:5)