Step By Step

A Total Dependence on God

I woke up this morning and this song was playing in my head..."Oh God, You are My God, and I will Ever Praise You...I will seek you in the morning, and I will learn to walk in your ways, and step by step you'll lead me, and I will follow you all of my days."

I like to have a plan.  I'm the type of girl that wants the 3-5 year plan; I want the planner that has everything organized and tells me exactly what I need to do, where I need to be, and what the expectations are.  Lately though, I feel that I need to invest in the world's largest eraser!  It seems that everything I plan ends up getting erased, changed, or moved. 

Giving up control is something that is really hard for me.  To say, "I don't know" is even harder.  In this season of life though it seems that God is asking for me to completely let go, to surrender,  and to trust Him with the plan.  Why is it so hard to trust the God of the universe, the God that created our days and our existence with "the plan"?  

And Step by Step You'll Lead Me, And I will l Follow You All Of My Days.

Faith is the moment before every step-- It is not having the plan, not seeing the vision, and yet trusting that God knows each and every step before we do.  

In previous blogs the theme that God had been placing on my heart was peace, separation, retreating. I wasn't quite sure what these all meant but now that I am in that season of total dependence on God, I understand.  We can not listen for the voice of God with each and every step of our lives if we are constantly distracted, continually busy, and overwhelmed with the voices of others.

When God asks us to retreat, it is with great purpose.  He is preparing your mind, body, and spirit for total dependence on Him.  

So the question today is...Who or What is leading our lives? 

I know that personally, I need to retreat, I need to consume my life with peace, and its time to make some very hard choices in order to be lead completely by God.

I know that I have to give up my plan for His.  Its time to take out that planner and that eraser and create a blank slate for God to work.  My plan is not working, it hasn't been working for a very long time.  I don't want to live a life of pencil and eraser anymore.  I want a life where God uses permanent ink and inscribes on my heart, His will and His plan.  

Is our plan keeping God from revealing His plan?

The heart of a man plans his way, 

but the LORD directs his steps. 

Proverbs 16:9