We all have an awakening moment in our lives-- that moment when you have an epiphany, an idea or a feeling and you realize that you're not waiting for life to happen, you are going to go and make it happen.
Making it happen only involves an open mind and a spirit of determination and confidence. It's realizing that whether you are single or married your life is happening now and you can be the one that chooses how you handle what God places before you.
For the past few years, I have not handled things very well. I was stuck in a moment, a memory, a heartache that I allowed to tint my view of all things within my life. I kept waiting for that hand to come guide me, for my heart to be fixed, and for my fairy tale ending to become a present day reality. I became consumed with anxiety and fear, I was a victim of my own life and I was desperate for the feeling of safety. It seemed the more doors I tried to open the more doors God seemed to close. The passions I focused on to cover my pain only became more complex elements of pain.
I don't understand the past, I can't make sense of the present, and I have no idea what the future holds, but I do know that God does. My God is a God who makes happy endings; however, it is the journey of getting there that is brutal; but through all my ups and downs--the poor Me's and the victim mentality, God's promise has proved true "For I will never leave you nor forsake you." You can only work with what God has put in front of you. When I stopped trying to make my life happen I realized that my life was happening. When I was content with less I grew in abundance. When I stopped focusing on me is when I began to better understand me.
Each person has this unexplainable moment in their lives where they give up the struggle and allow the healing, it is different for each but the end result is always the same--
A life that is lived for God and not for self.
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